Hearts And Darts

Sound: MTV in the Background [kill me now]

Life update:
-I worked 10 days straight
-Working about 48 hours this week [overtime wooo]
-Including an 11 hour shift
-MY FEET HURT
-Plus my roommate swore and yelled at me yesterday morning which freaked me out
-Now it's my day off
-Which I'm probably going to spend mostly shopping for groceries
-And chilling by myself.

I've always wondered where my life would take me. And I mean that literally. To New York? Am I going to be stuck in Utah? Will I remain in California? What if I move to Ireland?

As I get older, I've been moving around. I mean, this is my SIXTH address in two and a half years. It's kind of scary. Maybe pathetic. Because it sort of looks like I keep running.

To something? From something?

I'm not letting it bother me yet, anyways. Not exactly. I'm young and I want to travel. This year I'm in Florida. Next year, I want a semester abroad. I'll go Romania or London or France or Italy. I want to see places.

>Especially Ireland. Since I was about 12, I've had this drive to go there. I don't know what to see exactly or who I'll meet or how I'll even get there and back- but I'm meant to go there, even if it's only for a few days.

My main point being, however, is I'm so focused on the places that I'm losing track of people. Maybe that line doesn't make sense but in a way, I don't feel really connected to people anymore. Not really.

I'm such a hermit. And sometimes it worries me. I just don't have the guts to change it. Even though there are some people I connect with, it seems pretty different.

They say love is being able to go away and come back and nothing has changed. I respect that. In fact, it's true. I come home to my family and it's like almost nothing has changed, you know? And I do believe I can return to some of my friends and we'll just chill out like always.

My question is, what about the distance and time in between? What do you have there? Are they not supposed to be there? Do I have to try and fill those lonely spots with new people, making connections where I won't see them again after a while? They claim facebook will work but let's face it. Honestly. Half the time, I just want to quit that thing. It's crappy and a pathetic excuse to "keep our friendships."


I don't know. Just a few things I've been thinking about, really. Mostly because all I do on my free time is read books [Stoker's "Dracuala" currently], watch movies ["Footloose" last night], and on the buses, I listen to my ipod [loudly so I don't have to hear people talking].

Of course, at work I do have to interact. I wave, I smile, I answer questions, I try to keep people safe, and sometimes between that, I ask them how their day is, laugh at their wise cracks, and so on. [it kills my feet daily but it beats being back at my apartment where I think all my roommates hate me]

So I don't know. Once you lose touch with people, is it really easy to get back into society? Make friends? Even keep your old friends? And for goodness sake, how are you supposed to even tell?

Well Valentines Day is coming up, and I have the day off. I actually plan to go chill out at the Magic Kingdom then which I'm most likely going to regret with all the couples there. I don't get that holiday, anyways. Sure, holidays can be selective like "mother's day" and all but really? And even if I did have someone [let's laugh about that for a second], I don't want him just mushy on one day of the year. Not that he has to always be mushy or anything... I just prefer surprises so I don't get high expectations or disappointed.

But the Vow does come out tonight. Who knows? Maybe I'll chill at Downtown Disney and go see it at the theatres, we'll see.

Sorry for the random thoughts, I just needed to write them down and I'll probably come back to them often [untyped?] because these are things I think about again sometimes.

Cheers!

[On the bright side, I bought a 'pillowpet'- of Stitch! We can both look funny, be outsiders, a little weird. But I'd like to think we're pretty cute and cuddly too]

Accents

Sound: 'Mission Impossible III' movie

Saturday night! Where am I?
If you know me, you don't have to ask!

Hey, I'm sitting in my pajamas, it's barely 10 pm. Obviously I am alone about to watch an action movie after eating some chocolate cereal.
Please don't laugh at meeee.

Anyways! I just realized it had been a week or so since I last updated so MY APOLOGIES! I had a three day weekend and should have updated then [or did I?] but I didn't. I was too busy running to the post office for my sister [and Jenee and Katie] and... well, then I went to the Magic Kingdom and bought some teaspoons.
What? They were cute- adorable.

Random Orlando Fact: their fire hydrants are painted silver. With green accents. Almost feels like I'm in Epcot's Future World. But it's toooootally awesome.

Totally, man, totally.

[TURTLE TALK WITH CRUSH. A twelve minute interactive show where you sit inside a theatre and can interact with Crush the Turtle from Pixar's film, Finding Nemo! = that place is so crazy and different every day, for sure. My first day alone after training, I worked the show six times! Six!! And the last two days, not at all!]

All right my social life is:
Increasing by 3%
Why? Well, in case you haven't noticed, I'm a hermit. Not good with people. Socially awkward. And here, a Christian conservative who, well, let's face it, is surrounded by liberals who ignore me. But hey, it's all cool. There are a few people who are pretty chill. Jonathon, for example, even moved across the bus so we could chat before work. Jaime is a sweet guy, as well, everyone loves him and he loves everyone. Mike is a friendly older man who always wants me to do his work [if I could, I would], and just a few others.
> However I did get reprimanded by today's coordinator about rotation which I had nothing to do with it and hopefully she's feeling better now because it was NOT MY FAULT.
I say only three because my roommates rarely talk to me. At all.

But hey! It's a fun place and I love seeing the kids around. Usually I can get them to wave to me and smile. Also, I finally got a pin lanyard so they voluntarily come up to me now! Shocker.

Up above is the.... um. Well. The center tree... at Disney's Animal Kingdom.
Note: if you want to go to the park: grab a map. IMMEDIATELY. and keep it open.

Thank goodness I was alone, I guess? Although someone else would have laughed, at least they might not have been too lost. It took me a few minutes to shuffle through the jungle and get on to exploring!

The Everest ride really is awesome! But it's way too short. At least it's not too boring in line, though, once you get closer in the line, there's a small museum filled with artifacts about ventures and myths of the infamous yeti- very cool!

The bird show is cute, as well, and they have Africa and Asia there as well, with food and more things. I didn't go into Dinoland, however, because I was sick of "having fun" alone.

Revelation I received today: I spend money on fun things, because people never have the time to spend money on memories with me.

^NOT directed at anyone, I'm just saying. We all have our own lines and I have too much pride to even ask someone half the time.

If you have any questions about here or something, just ask and I'll provide the answers :D

So at the moment, I'm living off soup and cereal, looking to put in more hours at work [they barely gave me 30], seeing as I have nothing to do on my days off but do an hour or so of errands. Um... I don't know what else.

Yes, their are cute boys. Do I stand a chance? Not really.
And I'm probably not coming back with too much money- but at least it's a definite experience.

Coming up: Working my first Sunday tomorrow! Not too thrilled at all :( But I have just enough time in the morning to attend Sacrament Meeting, wooo.

Unanniversary!

Sound: The Notebook (playing on ABC)

Guess who's one of the trainees at The Seas With Nemo And Friends? ME!
Obviously, of course.

I don't have a complete picture of my uniform but here we go. My roommates actually don't think it's too bad but I try not to think about it too much. I've already been reprimanded for keeping my hands in my pockets [they're just so big and my hands get cold] and not having the top button buttoned [I'm claustrophobic].

Um, so I can't say too much, of course. But I'm already having issues because we get paid every Thursday and my roommates have gotten their paycheck and I haven't... It should get sorted out soon, though. At least I had the weekend off!


I meant to get this out last Wednesday because that was the anniversary of my real arrival! It already feels like I've been here forever, practically. But I was lazy.

BUT I DID MY FIRST TURTLE TALK. I was so nervous, you have no idea. I've gotten out of it twice but there's always that one time you get tricked into it, you know?

Still training with Joe. Our trainer, Ariel, said that we appear like brother and sister. He's such a kid making weird noises and claiming to be a player but he can't keep to his script, whereas I work hard and try to do everything right- which I do- and I just roll my eyes at his antics. I can't keep track of how many times I've done that, to be honest.


Friday I wandered around Epcot finally.

I wandered around Future World into Innovations [you can see how sturdy television screens are supposed to see and try and drop a heavy weight on a hard hat, etc.], then on Spaceship: Mars. That ride was GENIUS. I got pretty claustrophobic because it's a simulation with no space at all but wow it was incredible!

Then I headed to the International Realm um, place. I wandered from Europe to Morroco to Mexico in less than three hours, hitting about twelve or so countries. They all have at least a few [fake] buildings to celebrate their culture, along with a restaurant and a gift shop or two. Plus they bring out characters from those countries [Belle from France, Pooh Bear from America, etc], AND everyone working in those countries has literally come from that country and speak the native language and everything. It's so incredible!

Norway even has a ride. France has a patisserie that had a LONG line going out. I'll have to go some time! They have fireworks about nine but I didn't stay for that. Hanging alone is something I'm used to but it eventually gets tiring.

^Plus I'd just worked from about 7am to 4 in the afternoon. So I walked around the place, mocked my sister [Hi, Nessa!], for about four hours and headed out.

Last things: I went to Hollywood Studios- they put on a live 30mn show of Indiana Jones AND Beauty and The Beast. I saw a partial film/show of The Little Mermaid but I was there late so I didn't get to see the first few. YET anyways!! But it's such a fun place, mostly shops but still cool.
There and both in the International area they do live music- BRITISH ROCK BANDS ARE BEAUTIFUL- and they have a stage at the big hat in HS which is awesome.

Then work:
-I met Jaime, a BYU student and I feel not too alone in preferring clean language at The Seas
-TUESDAY is my final test to see if I can do everything at The Seas. This includes being followed around to prove I can perform every position [there's at least twelve of them], and taking a few tests. Wish me luck! I'm so nervous. I'm not good at testing at all.

Anything else? I don't think so. After my testing [about four hours], I have the day off in the afternoon and I'm going to check out Disney's Animal Kingdom!

And we have a little library here on the grounds and they actually had MY FAVORITE BOOK OF ALL TIME. Does anyone know what it is? GUESS!

We've had lovely weather, by the way. Nice seventies, a few breezes.